I miss her so much :(

She was my first girlfriend (and only so far) and now being on new medication and focusing on what is important, I realized my sexuality is important and so was she. :( She really made me realize that I am an artist. I miss her so much and I have been playing in photoshop and this is what I ended up with.

Blending two of our pictures together. I took both of these pictures of course, and added a rainbow.

It's so sweet. I miss her so much :(



I am on the left in the background and she is in the front to the right:


I just wish I could hold her again.

I love her.

And here is a video that I hold dear to me and reminds me of her and I. The movie is called "Tipping the Velvet". A wonderful movie if you ever get a chance to watch it.




Lyrics to that song:

If you only knew how much I love you
Would you still behave the way you do?
Forever tempting fate,
While I just sit and wait.
And worry about what fate might do to you.

If you only knew how much I suffer
Would you maybe change your point of view?
Or will you still go on
Till all our dreams are gone
And hope that I will still be there for you

Must I go on like this forever?
Not knowing when or whether you’ll return
Do I just sit and yearn
Or try to live and learn
And learn to live with what you put me through?
If you only knew…

I’m not as fragile as I appear to be.
I won’t so easily break in two

If you only knew how much I wonder
Whether you’re aware that you need me too.
If you weren’t so blind
Together we could find
The peace of mind that makes our dreams come true
If you only knew…
If you only knew…
If you only knew…